always me-

2006-11-20T06:04:00.000-08:00

i haf finally finished o level...

now is my break...

but i feel kind of loss and down...

kind of wonder why...

cant realli find the answer to tt...

lost all fighting spirit...

wad do i wanna accomplish during this hol..

who do i wanna aim after...

where do i wanna go...

when am i ready to part...

why am i so loss...

how do i change back...

let such feelings engulf me no more
let me find a path to my goals
let me achieve wad i was borned to
let me strive for nothing but my best

i shall be the solution not the problem
i shall conquer and not be defeated
i shall be the I i have pictured to be
i shall live each day to the fullest i can

may i be blessed with the strength and self-consciousness to correct my flaws
may i be blessed with the determination to do wad i set out to
may i be blessed with the ability to gain all abilities
may i be blessed to be a blessing to other

2006-11-19T08:36:00.000-08:00

hmm.. guess wad.. o levels are finally over... i guess im kind of happi.. and since then my every day's life is pack with different activities... hanging out with different group of people.. i guess thats how it feel to be free from academic studies.. however.. stress dun end as exam ends.. sad to hear that my sections haf some problem, though ivan told me that my section played quite nicely.. so i was rather consoled by that.. anyway, i will be goin down to see wad i can do ba... hopefully the rusty me can still be of some help.. lolx...

hmm.. prom night is coming!!! im honoured to have ek ping as my prom nite partner.. wah.. realli am looking forward to dat day.. i shall rmb to bring my camera! den can take some pictures! =)) after which i shall spend the night out with my frenz.. either crappin away at davin's house, or hanging out in the streets doin nth... lol...

last of all... to the powerpuff girls.. i will try to be less fierce.. so tt i will be less scary.. if not i go back to section also like kanna cast out like tt... lol... i still haf phobia of mr tan.. is like i see him will get scolding tt kind of feeling.. so i guess i shall juz avoid him... to leave a peaceful life! lol =)

oki tts all! to all sec 4s and JC 2s who finished their O's and A's levels respectively, enjoy the holiday break that we deserve! woohoo! =))

2006-08-16T04:24:00.000-07:00

Short post:

I have always thought of darkness and night as something scary... thoughts that linked with ghost and etc. seems to juz pop up, esp. when u are alone...

However, after the national day(9/8/06) , darkness no longer brings fear, and night no longer brings scary thoughts... To me, night is now a symbol of sadness, grieve, loneliness, but it also means hope...

I will forever rmb the date 10/8/06...

2006-08-14T05:03:00.001-07:00

hmmm...

i wanna talk abt sunday! i noe css was having the CSS Carnival 2006! but i was at my ah ma house, somewhere in paya lebar, playing mahjong =x opps? oh oh... but the thing tt matters is tt i won 19 dollars!! cool eh? but i split with my bro, cuz we took turns to plae.. =)

haiz.. u noe wad.. i am going thru something tt is very weird... i dunnoe how to explain but... i think i am juz not fated with alots of things, guess its all meant to be... i am not sure whether to catagorise wad i am feeling under sad or happy, but i juz feel quite lost i think... also dunnoe wad to say leh... haiz... even if i were to call u (liesl), i also dunnoe wad to share with u leh... cuz i also dunnoe wads wrong =x

tracking back... i think i am going crazy.. lol.. over lots of things... haha...

but haf to thank ivan =x lol.. now im part of his cg.. so quite fun =x and it allows me to meet new people =x special people =x

i dunnoe la.. the onli thing i cant accept is tt... why muz guy onli haf a relationship at the age of 21? lolx... issit realli true tt i am yet matured enuff to handle a relationship? i dun think so lor.. haiz... haiz.. haiz!!! freak la..

hmmm.. now i often see the name "janice" in my hp.. mayb its cuz i sms her very often now ba.. lol... guess so..

kk.. nth much le.. Dephanie!!! give me bible study! though i still dun haf bible.. T.T i wanna speak in tongues!

2006-07-28T06:41:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder, is going out once a week really too much to ask for... Freak la! I realli dun understand them... am i tt untrustworthy? or they scare i go out too much will go arnd committing crimes? or issit that they are worried that i cant finish my work in time? haiz.

To hell with all the stupid family rules that are not at all useful!!! ^^

You are everything that i could ever ask for...

Great personality... Kind, helpful, magnimanous, thoughtful... juz splendid! =)

Juz perfect! What more can i ask for..

However, there is always a "but" in life..

I juz aint good enuff for u.. and i guess the chemistry is realli lacking.. will u eva noe tt i am actually refering to you? would u even noe tt i like u? would u read my blog in the first place.. haha.. honestly.. i have no faith..

I wanna let u noe.. realli love you... i do.. i do... i do...

I realli wanna go for the deliverance service this sun.. who understands me!?!? no one... or at least definitely not my parents.. nor my siblings.. nor some of my frenz.. i realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli wanna go..

Miss the church frenz like janice, dephanie, vicki, xiaoyan. kang wei, kimberly and many others!! but... wad can i do to make it out of home.. runaway? will god provide me a living, a shelter, a place call home???

I need a space to breathe... i am suffocating..

God.. please help me..

im dieing...

dieing...

slowly...

quietly...

gone...

4eva..

I realised my titles aint published

2006-07-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

lolx.. i juz realised that no one can see the title that i write for each blog...

so weird...

wah... ANON.. tell me which level u are from??? then it would be easier for me to guess... is there any way that u can disclose ur own identity? (hint: is there anyway that i bribe u out of this?) lolx..

I saw u todae? hmm.. but.. i saw lots of girls todae! hahax..

and.. how are u so sure that i noe your name?(hmm..)

3 possibilities...

1) you are a very popular person in school
2) you hold some major posts in school
3) i noe one of your good frenz

There should onli be these 3 cases.. but i might leave some out! tsk tsk.. (i aint noe-it-all..)

Wah.. if this suspense goes on.. i think i will haf to depend on acts of superstitions... (fortune telling perhaps?)

oh!

todae's weather was very good! cooling... shady...

perfect for me to slp in class during boring lessons like Geography... =)

good day to eat some spicy food too.. helps to keep one warm.. ^^

the rest was nothing much... all the way till english remedial...

fortunately, the passage was cut short.. therefore, we onli need to do till Q7! alright man! =)
(joy to the world... ...)

got home... first thing...

Zzz...

Zzz...

Zzz...

hahax.. im such a pig!

next thing i finished up my english articles and the lame corrections.. (i got 8/15 for spelling.. it was.. juz bad luck!! XD)

den the saddening news striked me... didnt noe tt my french horn section got so much problem after i left... mayb its because after i leave, there is no common enemy for them to hate? lolx.. irregardless, i gotta go back to make sure things work out... juz couldnt bare to see them like tt.. my section leh... my second home.. =(

im in a dilema <--(i think its spelt wrongly =x)

i find church services fun... but im stunned and afraid (sort of) about changing my religion... or rather.. i dun even haf such intentions..

i believe that a god exist.. and tt it varies from religion to religion...

so which is the true god? =x - confused -

but for now.. lets juz enjoy the cell group meeting with ivan's cell group (they are a fun group of people) and also the services that i attend..

keep it goin people!!

ah ah ah ah.. staying alive.. staying alive.. =))

haha...

2006-07-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

wah... ANON.. tell me who u are leh...

some1 tt i neva talk to before.. realli meh?

not even a hi? lolx...

oh well.. a recount of wad happened todae..

plain....

boring day...

BOO!!!

haha... got you...

oh oh...

i've learnt todae that opportunities dun come by often...

SO PLEASE CHERISH IT!!! =((

tts the end...

claps?

shit.. this aint me..

oh well.. nite people!!

Happi bday to me!!!

2006-06-26T05:30:00.000-07:00

todae is 26/6 my bday!!!

Pooh rox!!! =P

todae was be yourself day!! met ivan earlier this morning and went arnd to take photos arnd the sch!!! started with 1/3!!!

wanted to get ning ning's contact... but she dun wanna give me =((( plan failed! =x

oki den took some photo with all my band fwens!!

very fun la.. i shall learn how to post fotos up here!!! den can post it all up...

after tt ivan, gina, me and liying went out!! to jp!! lolx... they ate subway, den me and ivan ate pizza hut... tasted quite nice!! lol =P

after which we wanted to watch silent hill!!! or scary movie 4... but we couldnt get the tickets cuz onli i was of age.. oh well.. nvm... ^^ we ended up watching a funny, lame, short movie.. the garfield 2!

last year during my bday.. i watched garfield with cheryl... lolx... quite afflinated with garfield.. it muz be the similiarity of size between me and garfield!! lolx

ivan i envy u!!! shant state the reason =x

tts about it...

thanks to all those who gave me present!!! ESP!! joce and jessica!!!lol

due to special request of audrey..

POOH ROCKZ!!!

24/6/06

2006-06-24T07:32:00.000-07:00

Todae is our Passing Out Parade...

Mr Tan find that we shld do our own passing out parade... i dun mind... but WHEN WAS I ASKED TO HELP THEM??? oh well... so i lack the initiative to approach them to help them.. sorri dude.. i always thot sec 3s does the pop for them? and i always tell them.. got problem can ask me!!! but u noe wad.. none asked.. so of cuz i presume they were oki.. =.=" and i got scolded.. well.. i suck.. so be it..

Worst part of these few days... honestly.. did i do something wrong??? y issit that she is dao-ing me!?!? not replyin my msg.. not talkin to me online.. and i realli did not do anything wad! Grr... felt so unwanted these few days...

Audrey msged me just now.. i told her i saw her photo at the je neoprint shop there... after which.. she dao me again... did i offend her too?

talking about tt.. liying, gina, chris and i went over to je to haf our dinner.. afterwhich we went to take pics at the neoprint shop.. it was like so fun la!! we took and retook photos and decorate it for like more than an hour?!?! haha.. afterwhich we distributed the photos and went home le.. aww.. the photos look good.. would be much better without my face =))

before tt we went over the foodcourt for dinner.. i had bbq pork and roasted meat rice for dinner.. tasted disgusting.. so... not nice... den liying had roast duck noodles.. chris and gina had western meals.. so it was like chinese v.s. the western meal...

after tt mummy gina treated us ice kachang! it was coffee flavour de.. after eating it, we felt so high and was talking abt the tadpole and the egg found in the ice kachang.. lolx.. onli chris said he felt low.. maybe becuz some1 wasnt there.. =x

Jingni was praised for putting alot of effort in makin the survey for the overseas trip.. yea.. and i handled other letters and helped her with hers.. and u noe wad? mr tan say as if I DID NOT DO A SINGLE SHIT.. oh well.. wad the fuc*

he say until im good for nothing... oh well.. maybe i am.. but wad to do... tried to change.. juz dunnoe how... things ALWAYS dun work out the way i wanted..

honestly.. whenever he pass me a task.. did i not do them? food for the new zealanders... i did it.. some of the letters.. i typed it.. i dunnoe macework.. recommend my juniors to some1 who do (not daring to trouble mr tan).. i did teach my juniors.. i did get them to do their jobs.. i did ask them to approach me if they need help (not more than once somemore).. so wad the hell u wan me to do..

i admit i lack of the ability to command the band.. juz dun feel that i got the power... its like who the fuc* listens to me when i speak.. not many.. and honestly i realli failed to make them listen anw.. realli wonder how jocelyn managed to command such respect.. me = failure.. aww...

oh oh!! liling!!! u did great for ur cannon... its ur first time playing a solo in a trio.. and i realli think its great!! honestly u rock... take care of my mouthpiece kiex.. make sure it shines whenever i come back kiex!!

linda.. dun worri about it la.. u, i and the section knows that u are a good player... dun let one setback take u down kiex... juz work harder... muz always be much better than juniors.. how can a teacher teach some1 better than her/him? therefore muz excel.. and pass it on to ur juniors.. always improve.. den always make ur juniors improve too.. u can do it.. i haf faith in u..

now for my dear jessica and theresa... although u all didnt managed to get the chance to perform on stage for the people.. i noe that u all are trying hard to improve already... do not rush it.. and u noe wad.. if u think tt i care abt liling the most, den u all are wrong.. the one tt im always most concerned abt is u 2.. all of u are like my pillar of support in the band.. every1 of u are impt to me.. and i mean it...

oh.. for all sec4s that are reading this.. u all will be able to collect ur evaluation forms on friday.. so i will make a announcement on thurs and fri to ask u all to come over to my class during recess to collect.. send 1 representative also can..

i juz find that band is like a nitemare to me.. although i met alot of nice people.. but overall.. i am realli scared of going back to it... gives me no sense of belonging... onli lots of unwanted feeling.. so juz let me graduate and wake up from my nitemare...

although its a nitemare.. but it onli started during sec3-sec4... lolx.. i loved band like hell before that.. lolx.. mayb cuz there were always seniors above me providing me the shelter... i haf a great section... realli.. im grateful to them... and some frenz.. some great loving frenz..

oh well.. the day after tml is... Sch Reopen!!! tsk. tsk. i love it! (like real) i didnt pay for be yourself day.. was real broke then.. and honestly... i aint regretting it man.. lol... so juz let it be.. wear sch u with tie... saves 2 bucks.. worth it.. lolx

but i still cant believe it.. is it my retribution or some sort? or is it that i do something unforgivable? juz wad the hell did i do!?!? can some1 tell me??? or is it something that i did not do?? wad the hell went WRONG!!! im going bonkers...oh well.. always look on the brighter sight..

some1... any1.. pls sms me to make me feel wanted.. im despo!! hahaz...

congratz:

ellise - for getting the best recruit award

all those sec 2s who got double promotion! keep it up!!

horn section for getting best section award! woohoo! horn rox...

sec 2s for doing a great first attempt for marching todae.. lousy senior like me dun even noe how to march.. how to teach u all.. sorri!

jocelyn - for getting the best cadet of the year... u rock baby!

Announcement...

All 4/1 peeps - pls wear class tee (pink one) on mon.. ESP Desmonkey

Sec4s will be receiving ur evaluation form on friday

oh... sorri for jumping here and there in my post.. feeling very mixed up now.. so its oki if whoeva reading it dun understand.. ^^

Aww...

2006-06-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

To: all organisms out there

ahem.. ahem..

i hereby declare that, i shall try to post as much crap as possible... =x tts lame =.="

see la audrey.. always influence me.. =x

todae was quite fun actually! went out with my bunch of frenz.. supposed to meet them 7.30 at the bball court.. and onli yc made it on time...

Benny sick so can be forgiven

Wenjian went over to benny's house to visit and also to kope his bball so can be forgiven

Kenneth said he was coming!! but did not turn up =.=" (wonder wad happened)

Davin WAS STILL SLEEPING!!! (he's always like tt)

oh well.. so we begin to plae at 8.30... and we ended up talking crap after some time... and we talked abt alot of things la... quite fun... =))

After which i sent them off to the bus stop then they went to westmall to makan and also to have their hair cut... i couldnt afford to accompany them because i went broke (not quite true... but i do needa save for things T.T)

After i went home i thot i would be nice to sms her.. but well.. she's kinda bz and not realli feeling well.. so i cant disturb her anymore.. so i ended up slping.. Zzz Zzz...

The other good thing tt happened tonite was tt my bro finally was able to start hacking maple again.. i told him to change the settings and try out but he was reluctant till tonite.. so we are able to hack again.. (i was fooled by him as he said it doesnt work... i tried on my laptop.. and it doesnt work as well.. =(()

oh well... see i do post!!! sometimes.. =x

oh oh... and we talked abt cca points todae.. i wonder if i will get mine... lolx... my teachers mite forget.. (hope for the best)

at first i still worry that she does read my blog.. but then.. i dun think she does.. so it doesnt matter.. no many read my blog.. i post for fun! lolx...

i've bought her something... it is not something branded.. but it look damn nice ( at least to me)... so i bought it.. i wonder if she will like it.. i hope she does.. and i hope she doesnt mind that it is juz a ordinary good that isnt realli worth mentioning the price.. but i realli think it look good.. so i bought it... i would give her when sch reopens.. but im realli afraid that she mite not like it.. well.. time to take a risk! ^^

Eqn of the month!!!

26/06/2006 = Sch reopen = Doomsday = My bday

Solve this simaultaneous equation and stand a chance to win a trip to the end of the world!!! ^^

And peeps!!! pls finish ur homework... i dun like to see teacher start nagging at my frenz.. =x

Goodnite and swt dreamz!! Zzz... Zzz...

finalli...

2006-06-20T04:59:00.000-07:00

lolx.. days haf passed!!! yay.. now u are juz abt to return le... i forgot to ask for the timing of ur return... ended up i didnt noe when to expect ur sms or ur call.. =x and ya i forgot to ask where u are going... lolx =x

hmmm.. but think u are returning soon ba... misses u!!!

2006-06-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

muahahahahha !
guess who am i.

i shall not tell. =D
yay. heeeee.
invasion !!!

mad la. crazy.
CMB(:(:(: rocks.

;D
people hate my keyboard.
i love my keyboard !
it`s nice. and unique.
that`s what smarter child calls me.
hahahaha ! got japanese words still.
eeeeeeee. haha.

i`m posting crap man.
since i don`t know what to say.
just saving this dying blog.
CPR-ing.

band camp !
Band camp !
BAnd camp !
BANd camp !
BAND camp !
BAND Camp !
BAND CAmp !
BAND CAMp !
BAND CAMP !
oh yes. i don`t like staying overnight.
but i love camps.
weird la. i love exclamations.
it`s just so.

NICE
crazy. !!!! (:(:(:

yay. RETROOOOOOOOO !
baaddeedooooodaaaa !
byebye.

eugene update la !

For wad i despair???

2006-05-17T07:18:00.000-07:00

issit the grades that make me sad? or issit the disappointment of others in me that makes me guilty? or might it be the guilt of not performing as good as i shld? or issit failure in my love life that makes me sad? irregardless of wadsoeva, life got to go on...

how bad can life get when u are healthy, got a happy family without problems, got a few good friends here and there... so to think about it, life is pretty good don't u think? i got a few caring sisters, like jocelyn, liying, panda, seha and a mummy!!! =P nice bros at home with nice dad and mum... good frenz (quite a no. lets no name).. lolx.. so life's good! ^^

such a setback in my MYE shall affect me greatly as it shall become a motivation source for me as well as a message that im not as good as i think i am afterall ^^ therefore i shld not think that im talented or sort and that i shld put in hardwork as well. This MYE can really cut down on my ego as well as my arrogance which i shld have already abolished when my senior nicole took over... but i guess without that arrogance i once again built something to be proud of which led to arrogance again... but now i noe im nothing... nothing at all... i shall once again strive with that attitude i did a year ago, and once again i shall have new break thru in life...

Sorry my dear juniors... i wanted to write a letter for u galz... but i juz dunnoe wad to pen down... some many things i wan to write but yet i find that there is no words to describe... therefore only the memories that we shared shall forever be engraved in our hearts... i love all of u my dear juniors!!! takkaire and excel with faith kiex!!!

Stupidity Beyond Comprehension!!!

2006-05-02T05:59:00.000-07:00

i cant believe it.. todae's emaths paper was relatively a easy one.. but i cant believe im dumb enough to not be able to do question 7!!! IT WAS SO BLOODY EASY BUT IM JUZ TOO DUMB TO COMPREHEN IT!!! ARGH!!! becuz of this stupid thing, MY A* IS GONE! F***!!!!

haiz.. but wads GONE will FOREVER be GONE! so im left with no choice but to get over this stupid stupid STUPID mistake of mine...

tml is combine humans!!! WOOHHOO!! the most unstable subject of mine.. i can score like A1 in one test and flunk the other one even though they are both source base questions.. i onli pray that i can do well tml and that my words will look damn neat and that i can write damn fast.. if not.. im dead! ^^ well.. why cant the examinations be carried out using computers.. firstly if we use microsoft word, then our spelling mistakes will be altered.. then my piece of work would also be neater in terms of handwriting wouldnt it? and at the same time.. i can type much faster than i can write.. so of cuz i can finish that piece of work at a much faster pace with much lesser mistakes (hopefully)...

well i got to go and slack my time away.. finished studying for combine humans le.. tml haf to cramp one whole day's time on GEOGRAPHY and my wonderful bio.. i love bio.. its fun... in comparison to geog that is =P furthermore.. the contrast in teachers also greatly determine our love and passion for subjects... however.. i must still score A1 for both.. tts the life of a student.. chained to the MOE system.. well.. take care guys! noe u guys/gals can do well for exam too!

To all my siblings esp Monday and mummy.. dun freak out wor!! take care of urselfs kiex.. esp monday.. or later u headache again.. and all those who haf problems or wad so eva.. feel free to call me up (during weekends preferably) and chat ba... ^^

Happy happi!

2006-04-18T06:03:00.000-07:00

haha.. firstly.. we haf won the MUSE Festival with the award GOLD and the challange trophy, given to the top band!!! lolx... haha.. ya..this is gonna be a very short post... cuz i dunnoe wad to write.. not feeling expressive todae.. congrats cmb.. u all rawk!

next happi thing is not regarding band de.. ya.. but its also happi.. some more its on the same day... so its 3 happi things in shot.. so cool... tt day was my happiest day i haf had so far i think... haha.. gold band.. top band... and something else.. ^^ but then again i feel so retarded.. becuz i did not grap the opportunity... den the special moment juz slipped away.. i hope there are many more of such moments.. and i promise i wun miss the next one.. ^^

but i also realised one thing.. that i can be realli insensitive and dumb sometimes.. ya.. i will try my very best to be more sensitve to things and be smarter and yet honest with my words.. ya.. so tt i will not cause some1 to be unhappy again...

and one more ting that i realised.. i haf many enthu teachers in sch.. they could actually fill up the board with homework in one day.. its so cool la.. im finishing some of it.. but i haven finished all.. lol.. =P

Sorry again...

2006-04-12T03:59:00.000-07:00

haha.. im sorry to my dear juniors (jessica, theresa, liling and linda)...

1st mistake - suan u all too much
2nd mistake - alwayz scold u all
3rd mistake - not strict enuff with u all
4th mistake - not good enuff to teach u all
5th mistake - started teaching u all too late
6th mistake - talking too much
7th mistake - mood swing sometimes
8th mistake - neva teach u all properly
9th mistake - couldnt even do wad i wan u all to
10th mistake - dun understand u all well enuff
11th mistake - make ur sectionals so dull
12th mistake - failed to make u all as good as u all could be
13th mistake - expecting too much
14th mistake - could not focus on everybody during sectional so alwayz leave 2 alone
15th mistake - not passionate enuff in teaching u all
16th mistake - alwayz like to blame u all but its me who didnt teach as well
17th mistake - failed to establish the bond between us
18th mistake - too individualistic... onli caring abt myself
19th mistake - alwayz stick out when playing together
20th mistake - trying to make u all play the same as me...
21th mistake - being too fierce sometimes
22th mistake - not putting u all as my first priority in life
23th mistake - alwayz comparing me and u all
24th mistake - expect u all to be like me
25th mistake - alwayz make u all feel inferior
26th mistake - saying the wrong things at the wrong time
27th mistake - expect u all to be finish ur acadamic work at a very fast speed
28th mistake - belittling u all
29th mistake - did not make u all love sectionals
30th mistake - make u all feel unwanted
31th mistake - not showing enuff care and concern
32th mistake - did not guide u all nicely through the life as a hornster
33th mistake - alwayz doubting u all
34th mistake - expect u all to rmb everything i said
35th mistake - to take up post which i did not haf the responsibility nor discipline to do it well
36th mistake - for becoming ur lousy senior
37th mistake - make u all suffer for 2 years
38th mistake - too slack in some things
39th mistake - not enuff initiative to pass on alot of things to u all
40th mistake - not realising all my mistakes much earlier

im realli sorry for all the mistakes i committed... juz hate me ba... since i realli dunnoe how to amend for all those mistakes le.. trying my best to be nice hyper and teach u all everything i noe le... but i guess.. its too late.. and im still not good enuff... and there i am complaining abt ttk when im like worse.. haha!!! me this type of person deserves hell...

the onli good news i can bring to u all is tt will be gone in a few days time... so u all wun haf to bear with me le... sorry again... u all must take care kiex... u all are real great hornsters... its me hu is sucky.. gambatte and bring horn section to the next height.. dun be like me...

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2006-04-11T04:36:00.000-07:00

i dunnoe wad title to put so juz written blank...

todae its a day of enlightenment... i haf finally realised that im nothing but a total failure... im so useless to the extend that i cannot even do proper sectional with my section.. den end up everyone got screwed during full band... i failed to instill dicipline in myself not to say my section and the band as a whole... its all thanks to me that the whole section is in such a pathetic state becuz im not a good teacher.. i realli wish to bring the whole section up.. but yet... mr tan once ask me.. so french horn section got hope? i said yes... yet.. i caused that hope to be once again diminished.. if i can fucking mispitch my notes... wad rights do i haf to even teach my section mates? i alwayz blamed ttk for his undoings but now then i realised.. im the true fucking useless idiot in the section... im realli sorry hornsters.. i've let all of you down... im sorry...

its onli 4 more days to muse... i also dunnoe wad to do le.. i alwayz thot that i have been doing the right thing to focus on techincals, suan/praise them when necessary, scold them if i must and juz teach them the image i haf for good teaching in my head.. but guess wad... the asshole that tries to teach them can actually mispitch and play wrong notes during a piece... if thats the case.. wad way am i fit to even comment on their playing.. i realli realli dunnoe how to carry on from here anymore... im realli sorry hornsters...

the post of dm... the role of teaching.. the trust people had in me.. the care and concern from friends... the effort people spent on me... i dun deserve all this a single bit... im realli not fit to be wad i wanna be... its all clear now... that i... juz suck and deserve to juz hide in a corner and quietly juz be gone from this world... everything will be much nicer and beautiful without this useless idiot.. sorry people...

Paiseh~ =x

2006-04-08T05:20:00.000-07:00

haha.. im so sorry people.. my blog juz went dead.. was too bz to post for tt period of time.. so i shall do it now.. lol... Liesl so lame !! =P blog also wanna boo! me... dotz.. but i wasnt scare anw.. =P but i cant stop poking u... cuz its so fun~! =P anw.. im listening to doraemon now... its not the simple version but the long long one.. played by tokyo kosei.. so nice.. ^^

Its gonna be the festival soon le.. juz next week.. hmmm.. wadeva it is.. we juz have to try our best to hit our best quota on tt day itself.. and juz make those other band go "WOW.. they are good!".. ^^ den tt will be like the coolest gift for all the graduating seniors.. we would also win the best band award in the festival as well as our gold medal! So people.. dun give up hope kiex! cuz if there is the belief and persistence.. we sure can do it de!!!

A piece of advice.. for all those people who find themselves to be heavily burdened with homework... i suggest u finish as much work as u can before next week.. cuz i can assure u that ur this coming fri, sat and sun will be burnt up.. so distribute ur workload evenly kiex.. den u wun go bonkers trying to finish it all.. ^^

My First Entry~

2006-03-07T04:30:00.000-08:00

Lol~ this is my first post on this blog.. i must thank audrey from the trombone section for this blog cuz she created it for me.. last time fiona created one for me as well.. but later on, i forgot my own user and pw.. so i didnt update that blog.. sorry.. but i still have to thanks fiona as well for her previous blog..

erm.. todae was a horrible day.. horrible sch day.. horrible band time... we all playing like shit.. that was so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sooooooooooooooooo disgusting!!! and we are suppose to be the seniors of the band!?!? CAN THE PEOPLE WAKE UP NOT!!! VERY IRRITATING ONE LEH!!! ITS YOUR BAND LEH! U ALL ARE WORKING FOR YOUR OWN BAND!!!

next thing.. i got to go do homework le.. in all.. people wake up.............................................

-Eugene

2006-03-06T18:46:00.000-08:00

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2006-03-04T23:00:00.000-08:00

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